Yes, You Pressed the UP Button On the Elevator Already; There’s No Need to Press it Again - Whenever I see people doing this, it really really drives me crazy. Unfortunately, I am often witness to this unseemly behavior by all kinds of people, mostly because I go to college and I work on campus and there are multi-level buildings all around. I try to take the stairs as often as possible, but I usually have to opt for the elevator when there are more than three floor involved or I’m running terribly late. Elevators are weird. I’m sure that under no other circumstance would I allow myself to be shut in a tiny space with a stranger for several moments. They also bring out the worst in people. You can spot selfishness or greed in people when they catch an elevator but then run into someone just as they’re about to get in the lift. Instead of letting the car go, they place themselves right in the threshold so that the elevator is trapped and not servicing other people who are in need. Then you see impatience. This is where most of my scruples lie. A person needs to use the elevator. They click the button once. They bell does not ring within two seconds? Press it again. Another second passes? Press it three times. Yes, the button is lit up but surely the elevator hasn’t received a command to come forth. Yes, it has, idiot! It’s simply waking it’s way to where you are and you just Need. To. Wait. Damn. Read the rest of this entry »

i am.

sorry for the major lack of update-age. clearly, i stopped updating as soon as i was done with school which is weird, but that’s what it is. not much has been up. well, that’s not true. december has been a crazy, overwhelming month with way too many things going on all at once, but i have enjoyed every moment of it.

happy new year, world. may it be more wonderful than anything has ever been, may you be loved and like and have people to love and like in return.

this deception will
one day catch up to me and
i’ll finally breathe

when i get tired
of feeling sad, staying cold
helps to distract me

i want to bite a
juicy red plump tomato
because it will bleed

looking at your mouth,
i cannot help but wonder
how sweet it would taste.

just for you to stay,
i would burn my every book.
i cannot go on.

should i speak up and
give life to the thoughts that you
create on your own?

have you ever been chatting with a friend when, all of a sudden, they say one little phrase or word that is so annoying or out of context or superfluous, that you just tune out the rest of the conversation while you grind your teeth hard enough so that you don’t tell him/her to shut up? well, maybe i’m just really touchy, but this happens quite often. with the help of two friends, sophia and roxie, i’ve compiled a list of some of those phrases that just really grind our gears.

readers, feel free to leave a comment with a phrase that you absolutely hate. Read the rest of this entry »

where i want to live:
safe behind your ribcage and
right next to your heart.

1. last night i went out with two of my closest gal friends. we started off the night at a relatively new bar that was pretty chill. more importantly, however, we got there before happy hour had finished and got two-dollar u-call-its for a good while. they had a live band that was playing lots of awesome eighties throwback songs. we were drinking kind of fast so by the time we got to the next bar, the bleu room, we were feeling pretty great. at this bar, the dj was pretty good, but the music was totally different. lots of lady gaga and hip-hop. here we started crazy-dancing and acting pretty silly in general. the bar at this bar was looking pretty good even though the first time i had met him a while back, i had thought it was an average joe. the last bar we went to was this place called old number two which is pretty sucktastic. i mean, it’s chill, you don’t have to worry about getting dressed up, but i don’t know… there’s just something that i don’t like about it. it’s probably the fact that that’s where most people my age would go. most of the other bars i go to on a regular basis, the crowd is generally older. i was with friends, though, and i had a great time nonetheless. the night itself was a success. nothing weird happened that dampened the enjoyment. i got home at a semi-decent hour, and i woke up on time for work! Read the rest of this entry »

on my nightly trips,
i will take my best weapon
and write to the world.

these are our last days
to speak up would be illo
gical, but that’s love

there is where i was
going to write your name but
i chickened out

what i think about:
you. you. you some more. youyouyou.
quite often it’s you.

luke skywalker and
james t. kirk, this weekend was
all about you two.

being home always
feels like a snippet of life
that’s never long enough

use minimum force
when dealing with the bad me
still me after all

unicorn puppy
resting in the captain’s arms
wuddup with that horn?

runny nose and tears
fan my tongue in hope of relief
damn jalapeños

Check it out! I’m keeping my promise. I bet you all thought I wouldn’t. I was wondering how I would do my T-Day spectacular all of yesterday and I decided that I would simply do a time-breakdown entry. Every time something big happens, I’ll note the time and upload the info here. I’m going to point out that my brother and father have been up since some ungodly hour working on something experimental so I may have missed some important thing happening. I’ll be taking photos of the birds and the food and everything else going down. Read the rest of this entry »

innermost fantasy
not stuck on an island with him
but be a sea-sailing pirate

this semester has been a hectic one for me. being the brilliant person that i am, i decided to take four literature classes. why? it’s beyond me. fortunately, though, after 4:15pm this afternoon, i will be on a short three day break. that means i don’t have class wednesday or thursday and, even better, no work wednesday through friday! amazing. i love thanksgiving. i know it’s a total immoral holiday to celebrate with such enthusiasm, but it’s the best. really. i’ll break down its amazing-ness. first, you get the day before the holiday off, too. you’re feeling good, because for the past day you haven’t done anything except pick at the delicious food that’s been bought for the special day. if you’re a good person, you’ve also been considering what you can contribute to the big dinner yourself. personally, i like experimenting with desserts. yes, delicious, carb-filled, desserts. on wednesday, you can also catch some awesome marathon on tv. it’s either james bond films or clint eastwood movies or trilogies (star wars, lord of the rings, etc) or, my personal favorite, the Twilight Zone marathon on the sci fi channel. after you’ve watched the same show or series of movie for about six hours, you realize you have to go to bed. you get under your sheets, all excited and jittery but then you drift away dreaming of turkey and pie and stuffing and cranberry sauce and gravy fairies and football gods. then it’s thanksgiving. i would describe all the warm feelings this word inspires in me, but no. a simple mention in an ol’ run-of-the-mill post is not enough. that’s why right here, right now, i’m promising a Thanksgiving Special blog post coming this thursday, right to your computer screens. awesome. it will be great. i promise.  Read the rest of this entry »

I feel the music
Coursing through my skin and guts
Joy seeps from my heart

by dante

i’ve found your secret
you’re just a fake palindrome
nothing impressive